I remember the days when going to school was fun because my friends were there, but things have really changed. The bubble complex with my friends has reappeared except this time there is a steel wall between them and me. I feel alienated and feel like I'm only there for decoration or back up. I know that I'm not the only one experiencing this because I watch the faces of others who've tried to cross the wall, but only ended up running face first into reality. This may be unintentional by those inside the steel walls but its time they realize that people are hurting. I find myself hurting more when I am around them then when I am home alone. I know everyone would've preferred that I kept this to myself, but I feel that if I keep all this inside then I am going to need a therapist. Thanks to the people on the same side of the wall as me, I am able to still remain somewhat sane. I'm sorry if this comes of harsh to anybody, but I think that it was about time it came out. I will probably delete this journal by the end of the weekend.